Anger fuel

I've struggled with anger due to my broken heart for a while now, and I wasn't really doing anything with it, except letting it sink in and destroy the good parts in my life. It wasn't until recently when I decided to use this anger, use it for good and powerful things, that I noticed a change in my attitude. 

For example, today I dealt with student loan repayment plans. That in itself is a headache, but when they want your payments to be 711... It's way worse. Yes, seven hundred and eleven dollars. Monthly.

After talking with them and figuring things out, I was extremely frustrated. I wish I had my degree in hand, or that I could easily walk into a career, but it's harder than that. I decided to take my anger out at the gym. Best idea ever. 

Usually I go to the gym and work through what I'm feeling. I question why I'm feeling it, and if it's helpful to me. If it's not, I like to just explore it and (try) to let it go. 

My job situation will change. I will find something in my related field, or something that I love. Until that point, they will work with me on payments so I can pay on my loans and still afford to live. 

During my workout, I was focusing on this, and my future. I also unknowingly spent thirty minutes on one machine and burned over 500 calories. 

Dang. And hour and I burned my 1000. 

Workout done. 

It was so easy.

All because I was focused on a problem the entire time. 

The crazy thing? I left the gym feeling better, and even got a call for a job interview in the beginning of the new year. 

Anger fuels. 

It won't always run my life, or ignite such a fire, but for now. 

Burn it down.