Rock Bottom Series. New Years.

Rock Buttom Series One: New Years


You have to hit rock bottom before climbing back to the top again.
This is a hard lesson to learn, and I, my friends, have learned it.

2013 basically sucked.

I should have known from New Years Eve that year, since usually New Years Eve sets the tone for the whole year.
If you couldn't tell, that night was horrible. The "at the time" boyfriend had to work (even though I think he did this on purpose) so i was used to spending most of the night alone, and would get my kiss at midnight, then go home. Alone.
I did this for three years, so I shouldn't be surprised when 2013 did the same. I got my kiss, and went home. Alone. Except, this time I wanted him to stay the night with me. I thought I had him convinced, but then when I left his work place I didn't hear from him. Texted him, nothing. I actually didn't hear from him for days after.
This was an on going theme.. but we won't get into that now.

2014 I brought in the New Year drunk with wonderful friends. Probably the best New Year I have ever had. I got super sick that day, and was sick for the entire week. It was the worst cold ever, but I'm super glad that I experienced that day.

Now that 2014 is half gone, it makes me think about 2015, and New Years Eve.
I have recently fallen in love with a boy ( I KNOW) and embarked on a long distance relationship.
This is how it has worked.
He "courted" me for months. We talked all day, everyday before he came to visit me.
I didn't want to make things official until I met him, in person. (He had asked me quite early on to be his girlfriend.)
He came for 4th of July weekend, and I'll tell you what, he was the most perfect human.
We spent the weekend meeting my friends, drinking beer, and eating whatever we wanted to.
When he left I knew I didn't want him to go. I cried. A lot.
We made plans for me to go see him in October. I purchased my plane tickets already, and I'm so anxious and excited.
In October we will make plans for him to visit me again, and so on....

I want to bring in 2015 with this boy. I can think of no better way to do it.

It will be like my first New Years Eve with a boyfriend again.
A boyfriend who wants to spend time with me.
Who will kiss me at midnight
 and will go home with me

 so him and I can be alone.

Let's do this 2015

SPOKANE COMICON

Offically announcing that I will be there.

Jeremy and I will have a table, actually the best table, D1.

I get a badge, which I've never had before for anything.

SK8RZ, our newest comic endeavor is being unveiled that day.

COME GET COMICS FROM US.


Have I mentioned I'm excited about this?

SO EXCITED.

SEE YOU ON MAY 31st!

Supernatural Send Out

So, remember that one time where I wrote an episode of Supernatural for a class and it was rad?

Ok, well I maybe a little biased.

With season 10 approaching, and potentially their last, I decided I couldn't sit on this anymore.

What did I do, you ask?

While in school, my screenwriting professors made it really clear that even if we are in the age of digital and email, it is always most professional to physically send out your screenplay. Get yourself a THREE HOLE PUNCHER (PSYCH reference) brad it together, and send it out.

I went to Walmart and purchased the adult things like the three hole puncher, brads, and a printer, since my died a while ago.

I printed out two copies of the script. One to send to the Hollywood crew, and one to send to the Vancouver Crew. With International shipping costs, that one will be like 40 bucks to send out, but well worth it.

This could be the key to everything, or absolutely nothing. I've decided that I need to start taking risks for what I want. I want to write for TV, movies, and comic books, and I can't do that just thinking about it in my bedroom.

I'm sure every fan girl absolutely hates me right now, but once again. WORTH IT.

If i could write on Supernatural for their last season, my life would be complete. The chances are small, seeing as they tend to keep the same writers per season, but I'm, hopeful. I'm passionate, I'm "ballsy".

Wish me luck through this endeavor!

I'm absolutely terrified, but I gotta start somewhere, right?

I don't wanna be anything other than… me

I've lost 45 pounds.

I went to ECCC and had a blast.

I'm working with comics again, and I couldn't be happier.

There can only be good things that will be happening in my near future, and I'm just so excited.

I'm going to turn this blog into more of a professional outlet, until I can figure out how to get a website up and running. I'm going to go back to posting writing on here, and even try to get my first comic up, as well as the new one when it is finished.

May 31st is Spokane Comicon, so EVERYONE i know should come out to support the book.

I'll be getting my facebook back soon (boo) to start to plug the book and the kickstarter!

Hope everyone is doing well, and I look forward to posting awesome new stuff soon!

Back to Comics!

I had a wonderful meeting with Jeremy (the comic artist friend) last Thursday. Any coffee date that starts with "let's make comics" is bound to be a good one.

We sat down and decided that we wanted to make a comic for Spokane Comicon, which is May 31st. He wanted something new and fresh, something that we both had say upon in creating, and I had a wonderful idea. So, while we are talking, he sketches some rad characters, and that is it. We had our story.

With only 12 weeks until the convention, he made me a list of deadlines, which is great because I'm really good with deadlines.

I missed writing comics, and I think I missed writing in general. To go sit at Starbucks with my laptop and a ginormous cup of coffee, to plug in my headphones and zone out, doing nothing but writing was AMAZING. I'm so fortunate to have made this wonderful friend who wants to make comics with me.

He also thinks we can really do this. Like, make a living off of this. We have an amazing plan which includes a KickStarter, to make our lives comic filled and epic.

I'll keep this blog updated with comic news.

I'm so excited about something again, and that is wonderful.

Nerd Identity Crisis

I've spent a lot of time over the past few months trying to define, or redefine myself. I went through a bit of an identity crisis. My morals and values have stayed the same, and for the most part I'm the same person, but I guess I was more concerned with whether I fit in with a certain group or not.

Openly, I am a nerd. I read and write comic books, I obsess over certain movies and television shows, and I adore Wil Wheaton. I like Star Trek, Star Wars, Superheros, video games, (even though I rarely get to play them) action figures, and Conventions. I liked Supernatural way before Hot Topic carried the merchandise,  I went to film school, I can recite almost every episode of Psych, Jack Bauer is my hero

From this list, it is obvious where I fit in. There has been so much shit on the "fake geek girl" running around the Internet, and I got to thinking… maybe I'm not as nerdy as I think I am. This thought strain mainly from my breakup. I dated a boy who worked at a comic shop, and was a huge gaming nerd. I was never as nerdy as him, but I also vowed to never play Magic: The Gathering. Our relationship was filled with geeky things, we even had key chains that said "I Love You" and "I Know." I thought we were the perfect nerd couple, and getting out of it I see that obviously it wasn't perfect, but I never could compare with him. I couldn't compare to any of the girls who hit on him at the shop constantly, and even now I can't compare to his new girlfriend.

I compared my self so much to others that I forgot that I am the one that is important in this scenario. It is what I love that makes me a nerd. You can be a nerd for almost anything, I just happen to like a lot of what the nerd world has out there.

I know that it is silly to label yourself.

I've decided I do not give a shit. I am proudly a member of the geek community, and I will take that for what it is.

I have the Star Trek insignia tattooed on my chest, and I will wear it proud.

Geek girl out.

Weight Loss. Achievement Unlocked.

As it turns out, I've achieved my first weight loss goal and have officially dropped 30 pounds. For me, this is extra good news. I have been working my butt off to see some sort of improvement, and I have. I've been going to the gym at least five times a week. I go for a little over an hour, in which I burn over 1000 calories. My food intake hasn't changed much, but I know that it needs to. Especially considering that I eat out way more than I should. I did however, give up soda. I haven't had one since August 1st, unless you could the little bit of ginger ale with whiskey. I also minimized my fast food intake, extremely. I've only had it a handful of times since August, and it wasn't a ton of it.

I tell you all of this, for no reason other than the fact that I am proud of myself and my progress. I still have a hard time seeing it in myself, although I did post a picture on instagram from July and now and I can sorta see it.

I started this weight loss because I was tired of feeling bad about myself. With being dumped, I had a huge purge in my self esteem, which wasn't that great to begin with. I'm now in a place where I am grasping my life, and doing things for me, not for anyone or that asshole of a boy I used to love. There is even a new boy I have taken interest in, and hopefully I will be able to track him down and give him my number soon.

All in all, I feel well. I'm also a living mantra of Mr. Feeny's "Do Good."